i tried
Monday, October 16, 2006
i tried.
from the very first day i made the decision.
i asked, would u still go out with me once in a while? no reply.
i asked again a few days later, "see how" was your answer.
i thought about it every single morning, to sms or not to sms. it weighed heavily on my mind, but from your replies, and from counsel, i decided to give it some time.
i thought about the previous times, about how it was still me who made the plans for birthday dinners, movies etc. about how i made the intiatives.
and then suddenly, i am publicly regarded as someone who dont try to establish contact.
i am a hypocrite.
i use people.
i abandon people.
i take everything else you said about me, cos its true. and yes, i will take the consequence, and i made the promise not to burden my friends with my problems anymore, when the time comes. i will just smile. but those statements above, are pure attacks.
if u push something away, dont announce to the world that it didnt come in the first place. it takes two.
at first i thought i will let it pass, but words are powerful and hurtful, especially from friends.
from the very first day i made the decision.
i asked, would u still go out with me once in a while? no reply.
i asked again a few days later, "see how" was your answer.
i thought about it every single morning, to sms or not to sms. it weighed heavily on my mind, but from your replies, and from counsel, i decided to give it some time.
i thought about the previous times, about how it was still me who made the plans for birthday dinners, movies etc. about how i made the intiatives.
and then suddenly, i am publicly regarded as someone who dont try to establish contact.
i am a hypocrite.
i use people.
i abandon people.
i take everything else you said about me, cos its true. and yes, i will take the consequence, and i made the promise not to burden my friends with my problems anymore, when the time comes. i will just smile. but those statements above, are pure attacks.
if u push something away, dont announce to the world that it didnt come in the first place. it takes two.
at first i thought i will let it pass, but words are powerful and hurtful, especially from friends.
